2 weeks later...
My boss called me yesterday (incidentally, my Malaysian counterpart has tendered her resignation) from KL, to find out how I was doing.
He said he heard rumours that I was looking for a job. I'm like, are you kidding, I have been telling colleagues I cant wait to get out of here. No seriously, I said I am not convinced of the appraisal rating I got. And his last words were "here, HOW you do things, is MORE important than actually ACHIEVING the objectives".
There, he said it all...
On a lighter note, my daily horoscope says "A conflict in a relationship might put the damper on your day, but it probably won't be serious enough to derail your train of progress. You are moving forward now in various aspects of your life, but change and growth are coming slowly. The good news is that if you keep your intentions out in front of yourself like a carrot on a stick, you'll be able to stay on track and arrive at the station on time."
I hope it comes true soon...
I have calmed down
Today is Friday, the 5th day after I got to know I am not getting any bonus or increment for this year.
For the record and for the umpteen time I have been asking myself, my boss gave reason for my below expectation rating as "behavioural". That is, for the past 1 year, I achieved objectives and KRAs (key result area) set, but the calibration panel felt I wasnt a team player, that I was defensive.
That, definitely came as a shock to me. To get a "below expectation" rating. To be denied bonus (almost everyone qualified) and increment. To have worked my ass off for the company, and for the company's crisis last year. To be sabotaged by Politics. With a capital "P".
I was really angry when my boss broke the news, via VC, to me. Angry tears flowing down my cheeks, the only thing I could think was, "I have achieved the objectives set, so why am I rated poorly?"
You see, I have offended the market manager last year. We didnt see eye to eye. I even lodged a formal complaint against him. He BULLIED me.
For the past 4 days, I could not get over the rating. But after going through some solitary thinking, and probably announcing to a lot of people (of course they were surprised too, and quickly linked it to the market manager), I have decided that in life, you win some, you lose some.
This round, I lose. Next round, the loser will not be me.
Mark my words.
